I'm trying..
Sometimes i ask myself if these attempts are enough?
If they're gonna turn me into the person i wanna become?
Is it even worth trying this hard?
Idk but i just wanna keep going even when sometimes the voices in my head tell me -idiot what the hell are u doing right now?- and then i think to myself.. what the hell am i even doing right now? (MY INNER STRUGGLES WILL WEAR ME DOWN)
Anyway i wanna try to keep going.
Im still...
Im not trying because the fear of not being enough the fear of not being perfect is more them the fact of even imperfect things are beautiful
Maybe because i was never told i was enough
Ive tried but always ended up as a loser
So im scared to try again
Im sitting still knowing the time is passing
i should move and try again but i cant.
Maybe its bcz i was never perfect
And i want the perfect
But im stuck in my mind recalling all the things i used to hear.
I know i should move on and keep trying
But my mind cant!
I'm hanging on tight
The pieces in my mind
Just tryna stay afloat
No hand for me to hold
The waves, they crash all night
They're drowning me inside
It's hard for me to go..