I am tired of the feeling within me, waking up every morning with a heavy sensation in my heart and clearly seeing the anxiety and carrying it with me; it is really distressing for me.
Speaking is very rare for me. If I'm chatty,
it means I'm feeling good in your company.
When someone makes fun of me, I turn into the smallest version of myself at 8 years old and I get upset and cry for hours about it. I remember those days well, I remember how much I needed a hug and affection.
I'm unable to explain myself to others, so I prefer to try distancing and disconnecting.